Sometimes I regret my choice of doing software engineering only to be glued to a computer my whole adult life working at optimizing systems for large corporations to maximize their already huge profit and contributing nothing of significant value to humanity.

I’d rather be riding around on an ATV outdoors with the sun and trees and flowers and birds collecting soil and rocks and stuff.

Op could have made worse choices overall. ATVs are pretty cool. Soil is soil. Coulda been a cubicle monkey. At least op is getting some sun.